Dose love exist?

Will Start my writing with a notes, that i got from some where:

"Waqt thoda hai pass mere,

par bahut kuch abhi karna baki hai.

wo zakham jo apno ne diye,

unhe abhi bharna baki hai.

tere dosti ki aadat si pad gayi hai mujhe,

kuch der tere sath chalna mera baki hai.

kuch pal ke liye shamshaan chhod ke kahin mat jana,

varna ruh kahegi,ruk ja, abhi tere yaar ka jalna baki hai."

There is no relation between what i am going to write and what i have written just now. Both are independent in nature, without any link.

Dose love exist? It's a million dollar question for me. I don't know what is Love? Because never knew what is Love, Never feel, Never got. So it's obvious that i wont know, what is love.

But why some times, I feel that some one should be there , with whom, I can share my everything, can hold her hand and make her feel my heartbeat and tell her that "Hey SHONA, you are very much important for me, without you I would not prefer to take single breath, can hold you like this for life time and will love you till my last breath. You are my reason to live SHONA."

Why i wanted to make that someone, very special in this world?? What is it? A strange feeling, Is it love or something else?

This is One part of so called Love if it exist, but when i see, another part of Love, i started thinking does Love really exist??

Because this world is totally strange for me, because i have saw many children, neglecting there parents. Then i started thinking, that whats wrong they did??? why they are suffering like this?

Once we were child, our mom used to take care of our each and every necessity. She was the first who started understanding our language, when every one was used to say : Totla raha hai bachha". But she knows what we are saying. and now we are saying " Tum nahi samjhti maa".

What a answer for her understanding. Hats off to us.

Now where love gone??? I don't think so that anything called Love exist. Because if there is love, it wont do partiality. So what is it??? Again Million Dollar Question, unanswered...

Do you have answer for that???

Politicians: The Killer Parasite

India, Land of Opportunity, scope and many more but i don't want to mention about many more. You must be thinking, what the hell he want to tell, and may be you wont be interested to know about that many more. Not an issue, its your wish, I wont force you because i know i am not a popular celebrity or politician or any baba.

We don't leave any stone to shout and to tell that India is oldest and greatest democracy. Great country. I am agree with great country, because we always listen to others, very much believe in "Atithy Devo Bhav". Atithy's are like god for us. Thats why we always allows moguls to East India Company to stay here. We Indian's are great. We think from heart, not from mind and Heart can be make fool always. Every one cheated us, but still we are thinking from heart. We don't give pain to our mind. Our mind Only work to make short cuts, and think how to do buttering.

Its our bad luck, that still we are believing any one without thinking anything. We used to obey Firangs and now we are obeying Our great politicians.

Any one can take money in front of public and if you'll say something, matter will be worse here Cast will come, Politicians are bigger then East India Company in terms of killing and seducing our own people.

They only understand language of Money, they can't understand anything else. When i think about all this I don't feel proud of being Indian. Its shameful act. we choose them to run country but they choose us to make money for them.

They are like a killer parasite, who kills us, slowly slowly and we never realize.

I can't understand why common man is unable to understand, why we choose them. Its strange.

We are divided into castes, and we are used to it. If anyone belongs to our cast will do any such things we don't care. This is biggest deli ma for our country.

We are dieing for cast and they are killing us for Money, It means here:

Cast=Money (What is it?)

They play cast card to make money, and we stupid common man play as they want.

We don't have rights to object for anything, if anyone will say anything, matter will go to cast court. That I am Dalit so they are saying this. This thing is very silly, simply they are making us fool, I don't understand what is the relation between Dalit and Bribe.

Its sucks. I feel uncomfortable.

Some time i feel pity for my poor countries fate as well mine.

There is lot to tell but what is need. i just wanted to omit all these things since long time, because they were striking me always.

Jai Hind, jai Politicians

My thoughts for me

I am helpless, nothing, hopeless, angry with myself, is it life? if this is life then i would prefer lifeless me, its not a life its torture. Every second i'm feeling that i am nothing, nothing i can do, nothing is in my hand, i got nothing, feeling half full( As i have read somewhere that half full is batter than half empty, again have some faith on my luck, but i know thats bullshit). Its like we are working with remote, i am disparate to get many thing but as of now din't got single thing.

Why i am helpless, hopeless, in between faith and unfaith. just fed up with this life.

If will think so then defiantly will start behaving like this only, and if will think that hey i have many thing, i have ample energy, i am sure than i'll feel some kinda energy, that will motivate me to do many things. So why think Negative, Think Positive be positive and live like King.

March 24th 2010, 3:10 PM

Everyone think that they deserve what they want but i am unable to understand what about others??? Are they least deserving candidate??? FO to life... where we don't have courage to do or think for others, we are busy with self, we don't have time for others but when we get time or chance we says I Love You. It is highly impossible and our biggest lie...


When someone is not replying you or not lifting your call, let them go, because now they don't need you, may be they got someone interesting then You. Those who don't need you no need to show concern for them. let them go to hell, and if possible show them easy available path. It hurts when you give your important time of your life to someone and they ignore you. i just felt that no one is important then TIME.

I was going through a book called "I too had a love Story", here i got stuck in many para and was forced to think that "Is love is so Beautiful?" Before reading this book i was never feeling so romantic, but now i can feel Love is in Air, having different thoughts, feelings and main thing my way of thinking(For Female) have changed. Feeling was not a big thing for me because as of now i know its part of life and like time, it will change but i am worried for my way of thinking for female have changed, how come? I don't know how suddenly i am feeling Love, Love for whom i don't know because i don't have girl friend also.

"Khushi" Name of one of main character in book, is roaming in mind, I don't know was she but i am feeling like i know Khushi very well, So beautiful so Loving and at present she is one of worlds most beautiful girl for me, in every girl i am looking Khushi.

I will add few line from book that touch my heart and i was stuck, thinking Oh my god what it is???

" Her simple, innocent question left me speechless. She was crying, i was crying and the sky was crying with us. It started raining heavily.

'It took you just a second to say that. But i am a girl. I will be leaving my parents, my brother and sisters, people with whom i have lived my life so far, my home which holds so many memories, just to become yours. And you said that you will leave me.'"

I am feeling that with Ravin i too started loving Khushi. I am Sorry Ravin but its not my fault you have explain about her beauty and about her that i couldn't stop my self.

Any way this about book, its a mare a book but why the hell i am suffering from strange feeling, why i am getting thinking of Love that does not existed in my directory. Suddenly what happen? now i am thinking is Really Love exist???

My Love for writing

I know i am going to do something that i should not do. But i have read and saw in many Bollywood Movies that you should do what you love. So after many motivations or so called motivations i am going to do whatever i wanted to do since i was a kid. I Don't know what made me to think that hey dude i am a good writer yaar and i too can write. To be frank still i don't know what motivates me to think so. but after many thoughts and dreams finally i am going to do whatever i wanted to do since childhood, many times i tried for that but don't know why din't continued. Any way whatever was the reason i am not interested to know that, and why should i give pressure to my mind that always want peace.

I have got Phd for using wrong spellings, and sometime think that if Mr.Wren & Martin were alive they never dare to publish Wren and Martin English Grammar. not because i am perfect in grammar but because i become expert in breaking leg of English language. they must be think that why the hell we should kill the innocent languages beauty by a stupid fellow like him. Thats me...

No matter what Mr. Wren & Martin will think about me and my language, i will do whatever i wanted to do not because its my passion but because i belongs to a country where we live others life, we try to relate ourselves with them. i wanted to prove my self that whatever Hero does in movie i too can do... because i have lots of respect for writing and it came after watching that particular movie i am going to write no matter what.

I just wanted to show my self that hey see that time Hero did now i am doing. i wanted to compare my self with Films Actor because we indians are like that only...
After writing all this i am feeling very blessed because i am also considering my self true indian because i stated what i was thinking to do since my childhood. no matter what i did.